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My pain...


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(Dit bericht is het laatst bewerkt op 05-05-2019, 23:07 door Nola.)

[font=.SF UI Text][font=.SFUIText]How can I describe the feeling of being lonely all the time? The feeling that I have no one by my side, when in fact I do. How can I describe the emptiness within? The pain I have to live with every day. I put on this mask, the mask of a nice young woman every day, the mask that hides the real me. That nice young woman is getting everything out of life when in fact she doesn’t. I don’t. So what do I do? I put on my best smile and say I’m okay to make other people THINK that I am. When in fact I’m not. I sing this song, the song of my life, the song that I had to put on pause, rewrite the lyrics to and change the tempo of, and I’m waiting on stage to put on my best performance. My last performance. Because lately I feel that the world is better of without me. So what can I do? I cry, I scream, I try and I sigh. And nobody seems to notice that the weigh on my chest is only getting bigger and bigger. Until one point I can’t carry it anymore. Every day I pray that my demons will go away. The fear, stress and pain I have to go through every day. Those are my demons. My demons aren’t under my bed, no they’re inside of my head. [/font][/font]

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Hi Nola, 

Why is it in English? Not a problem for me, just wondering Smile


But isn't there someone in your life whom you can trust to share your feelings with?
Have you been to a doctor, or psychiatrist to try to talk about it?
A depression is a thing most of the people go through alone, due to multiple reasons.. 
They differ per person, but most of the time it's putting on a mask, and everything's allright. 

But from the inside it's like a war. That tears you apart, piece by piece. 
Emptiness, loneliness, nothing feels great, everything is black, doesn't matter if you are surrounded with loving people or not. 

I can't tell you what to do about it, but maybe you can start with asking for help? 
We tend to make it hard for ourselves, because we believe we are unsavable. 
But we aren't my dear! 

Be strong, and when it is too much, you know where to find us!


''- When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. I have several stands around here. -''

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